Can she even say that?

So, parents evening tonight, and my history teacher has desided to tell my mum, since I've come back after being ill for two weeks, I act depressed, what the hell? I've lost the sparkle in my eye? Maybe it's true, maybe I do act depressed at times, sure, I ain't been as happy as I have been. My flipping rabbit died, it's going to take a while to get over that, and then my bird? Sounds pathetic, but a change like that isn't good for me. Things need to stay the same. My rabbit was a part of me, for 8 years, and I can't just throw that away and forget about it. I can't go back to being how I once was, with a gaping hole in my heart. It's just going to take a little getting used to. I'm sorry I don't have that sparkle in my eye, but I'm working on getting it back, I'm working on it. Everytime I laugh or smile, it appears, even if only for a second. I'm trying to get back on track, and it's just too much pressure. I just have to go with the flow though, I'm dwelling in everything whilst the rest of life is passing me by, and I can see people don't like it. They're getting bored of me. So I need to get this twinkle back, and fast, otherwise I'm going to lose everything. I just need to smile. My very existance depends on it. There is one person that can fix it all... I just have to hope I'm not beyond repair...